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Late Night Ramble

 4:03am just sitting here reading old post nd jus reminising on how happy i really was bac then.  so many unanswered questions run thru my mind... how could i fall so hard? its really crazy how i have to act everyday as if my past doesnt still hunt me =(...ppl say everything happens for a reason rite? but y dont  they ever tell u how to cope with thing when they happen? This whole love thing should come with some type of instuctions....

People say being in love with two ppl at the sametime is possible,but i think different. back then up until a few months ago i was in love with someone i knew i could never have. i loved every little thing about him but everything told me we could never be. then i met James n he made me feel as happy as ive ever felt b4. i fell inlove with while still lovin the other. it sounds all messed up but believe it or not i was happy with how things were. now it just seems everything is so messed up. James has a son with another girl n the other has a girlfriend 4 which seems like an eternity =/...sometimes i think happiness isnt ment 4 me.

wow still cant believe its been four whole years since ive been on this thing. time now a days just seem to pass by.  i was so young so innocent in my old post but not so much ne more. life just takes you thru so much and it causes you 2 grow up so quick. im sitting here wondering where that 16yr old girl went in these blogs, but i  kno shes gone now just a distant memory jus like everything else in my life. i never knew i could miss something so much. i guess one day i'll move on...i hope..

well i've rambled enuff...until next time i guess...<3

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update?

Wow..still can't believe i'm reunited with xanga after four long years. Hmm...lets see..since my last update i've broken up with that lame i thought i was madly in love with (oh how love is oh so blind). i graduated high school (was glad to get out of that hell hole but now i wish i was back) i moved to florida to start off my college expierence..and i loved every moment of it...i moved back to brooklyn cos of this crazy recession..and now i go to school in queens as a nursing major...ugh life has been the ultimate rollercoaster. im tryin to save every nickle and dime cos i finally realize that living in brooklyn isnt for me. florida was jus soo...ummmm FANTASTIC!!! i was truely living the life out there. i kno ppl wanna kno what happened to me n James, lets just say we went through alot, i was really bilnd, and WHAT IS HIDDEN IN THE DARK EVENTUALLY COMES TO LIGHT. i really took a down fall after that relationship, but im better now i see things clear, and althogh i have alot of issues pertaining having another relationship, i kno one day i'll let go of my insecruties. All in all, im better and i get better as the days go on.

...i think thats enough to grasp in one update lol...until next time!

WOW

OMG so its ONLY been FOUR yrs lol

but im BACK and with AWHOLE BUNCH of new life expierences so watch out for my new update...if anyone still uses this lololol...

hey my fellow xanga peps!! its been awhile since i've been on so i'm up for and update..still deciding if it should be long or not..well its not like ne one reads it ne ways so ill juz see as i go on

Jounior year..hmm im thinking as grades wise its going really well..i hardly cut and im almost always in class. Since this is a big year for me i wanted to make it count for myself and i think im doing a pretty good job..I do my homework i particapate in class and my test grade are on point so im pretty much passing all my classes there should be no surprises when report card day comes =)

My baby..hes the best..usually girls who have boyfriends tend to mess up their grades but not for me..we spend time with each other and my grades has been better than ever..maybe hes just excatly what i need in my life right now. HAPPY BIRTHDAY to him hes 18 today =)..can't wait to see him<33

Sing..sing is this friday and saturday its gunnab be really good as usual hopefully sum surprises come up this year like last..i think our run thru is really good knowing the fact that there aren't as many kids that tried out as to the so fresh and seniors. But hey if we win that great but it was all fun while it lasted

Christmas my second favorite holiday(beside my b-day) i love xmas season cuz i love da gifts and espically all the love thats aroud this time of years..i jus wish it would last all year round.

These months are going by so fast my 17 bithday is coming up in excatly 3 months from 2morrow..can wait for that..so many things are coming up jus cant wait for xmas vacation to come along..hehe a break from school and more time to spend with my baby <33..well i think i sed all thats needed to say for now..until next time my xanga peps! luv ya muwah

hey ma xanga peps..yea haven't bloged in a while so i felt like it was that time 2..went to Midwoods homecoming game today man wat a blow out of 28-0 against our rival school(madison)..im glad there was alot of people there to support the team

on another note me n james are doing really well and im glad hes become apart of ma life <33 he teaches me to look at things in a different way..like i told him that i have h8erz who love to talk about me  ma cuzin n ma friends..he told me dont get upset cuz they talk about me he says i should be happy that im being noticed by people wheather its in a gud way or bad..so yea if ur readin this n u kno u talk about me..heres what i have to say to u THANK U =)...

ne ways school is going great ma grades r wonderful..man im so proud of myself things r really looking up for me this year..well i have to go n do sumthing so ima leave with a pic of how ma hair looked today..hope u like =)